The past whole week was night shift with Kk.. a super tiring week for the both of us...

Monday.. morning i went sentosa with pu, vincent n biao yong.. played some beach volley n surprisingly, they even brought along cards.. so we sat in the middle of the beach playing big2.. haha.. after wards all of us just slacked n relac at one of the bars... half way thru.. i felt veri veri giddy.. so i tot i would go get sth sweet to drink.. by the time i reach the bar.. i totally blacked out.. n tt split moment.. i was really veri frightened.. bcos its the first time i experienced anything like that.. everywhere around mi was in total pitch black.. but stil.. i gathered all my strength n walked over to a chair n i really collapsed there... the bar owner was so kind to call out for pu... i rest, washed up, n quickly went over to lucas place to take a rest..
half way thru.. my boss msg mi asking mi to go in early to work.. so i tot i take a rest and go in to help.. but lucas dont allow.. he wants mi to rest more.. lol..
so the whole night mi n kk were super busy.. no time to rest at all... -_-

Tuesday.. I went over his place to slp after work.. all the way till night... n its busy night for mi n kk again.. arrrghhh...

Wednesday.. busy night again?! its like so sian can... supposed to meet up wif pu for swimming.. in the end i am locked at home... long n stupid story ok.. n pu came all the way to acc mi.. haha.. he sitting outside my hse n mi inside my hse chit chatting... lol..

Thursday.. i realli cant rem wat happened.. but its busy night again lo... haiz..

Friday.. the eve of a PH.. meaning more work for all of us... mi n kk went in early and we managed to release all the results early.. yeay! so its free for us the whole night.. haha..

Sat.. after work i just went to his place n zzzz the whole day... woke up to meet up wif spencer, cindy, wee, hc n charlene to geylang for dinner.. frog leg porridge! yummilicious! hehe.. half way thru.. he called saying he fell down at soccer n fractured his finger.. =( took a cab down to hosp n pick him n his parents up before sending him home..
After sending him back, he actually told mi to go back to look for spencer they all when its already 10 plus at night ! dotz... i was quite irritated.. so i went back home...

Fri was work as usual.. despite the fact i was feeling super down.. and plus i couldnt contact him.. no doubt he was having ops.. i have to admit that i was feeling good when i know nth abt it.. but anyway, its all okay bcos he has his reasons..
Instead i called wee n talked to him abt some stuffs.. went home and i decided to take the initiative move.. i msg him if he had finished his ops.. n so he said he was stil at a pub at tanjong pagar.. alright.. i went off to slp after all.. in the midst of it.. i was woken up by his miss-call.. and i did not call back cos i was too slpy.. received a msg from him.. n i slpt with a smile on my face..

Sat i was supposed to meet gb n ah gong at cck at 1130 but.. at 1230 i was stil slping at home.. washed up asap.. n met them for lunch.. they bought mi to the yuki sushi or sth for sushi buffet.. yummi.. i love sushi! hee.. those two kind fellows then paid for my lunch.. and we went shopping around looking for my fren's present.. sadly.. i couldnt find anything nice.. n out of no where.. they pop out a big bag of presents for mi... when i really gong gong tot that they went toilet.. lol.. i really love it.. haha.. and i was stranded there not knowing if i should go off or not.. bcos he stil havent reach home... and originally i was supposed to meet up wif rh.. but i decided to go home anyway..
on the bus ride home.. i felt so suffocating.. i felt that i had to get everything out from bottling all up.. so i called him.. he could sense that there was sth wrong wif mi.. so i told him i realli wanna tok things out wif him.. n the first thing he asked mi, "u dont want mi already ar?" lol..
i went to his place.. tok things wif him.. ok.. we both have our own point of view.. but i guess overall, its meant to benefit each other.. and then i told him i was really uncomfortable that clyn keeps contacting him... i asked him to understand bcos i am not someone whu is unreasonable.. i just feel that she has an ulterior motive..
i told him i felt insecure.. mayb not much trust.. i felt he would just run away at any point of time.. n he shooted back at mi.. he's the one that feels this way.. that any time i would just let go of this r/s.. right...
we talked abt his money issues, clubbing n drinking issues.. all in all, i would say i am an easily satisfied girl.. i felt much more at ease after talking..
spent the night at his place..

Sunday, he went to work super early.. a very last min thing.. so i woke up by myself, watched some bleach then went to vivo with spencer, rh n agnes.. ok.. before that there was some commotion happening betw us.. haha.. the shopping is super big ok.. i went searching for my evening wear.. nth found.. i went searching for my frens' presents.. nth found also.. argh.. we headed back to habourfront for tea break.. lol.. then dear came to join us.. went back to vivo then we all headed down to pasir panjang food centre for seafood.. yummilicious! hehe.. tok tok there.. n its time to go home... ko immediately.. lol...

anyway, think i will reply to all the msgs on my tag box here...
QiuYan: Thanks alot girl.. =) never expected u to tag here.. hee.. yea i know wat u mean.. but mayb cos the feeling's stil there.. i would like to try harder to make it work.. =) *hugz*

Zhen: girl.. thanks.. i received ur msg the other day.. i must say it really brightens my day.. hee.. dont worry i will be ok.. =) *hugz*

Qi: hee.. thanks girl.. ya.. sometimes i just dont feel like saying.. when its time i will tell ya all.. dont worry.. =) *hugz*

Uncle: erm.. i dont know who are u.. lol.. but i will rem ur words.. thanks alot dude.. =) i will definitely stay strong.. *cheers*

Charlene: heee.. thanks.. this week this week okie? msg mi okie.. hehe.. n sentosa this week.. dont forget ! hahaha.. =) love...

i need a break badly... ar...

i feel so frustrated now.. i dont know if i should be saying this.. but i just feel so fed up at work.. mayb i just feel that some ppl there selfish.. to be frank, i feel that i am kinda suay that i ended up partnering with 2 of the seniority colleages in my team.. i hate it when both of them are always out to "fight" with each other.. i am always caught in the middle.. i wont say names.. but i just need to vent my anger..

A always w/o fail pang seh mi at the very last min.. i hated it when its saturdays with her.. cos i know she will always come out with a reason to leave mi alone... and i always have to stay back for ot bcos there will always be samples coming in on sat.. is like i am stil a newbie there n i have only been there for like half a year.. n she can throw mi there alone.. so damn frustrating.. i nearly cried once bcos of her behaviour..

then A and B will always try to pick on each other for god knows wat reasons.. its realli veri irritating.. and bcos i am teamed with A.. all the disapproval abt A from B would always go to mi.. sometimes i feel like i bo tai bo chi tio niam at.. i really veri sick n tired of all these..
argh... i really dont wish that one day i just flare up.. bcos things will be very ugly..

n so.. this week A is in morning shift with bec.. today she suddenly mc... i bet tml she wont come again.. n bec is left alone again.. i just dont understand how come some ppl are so self centered.. it realli wont kill u to just sacrifice ur abit of play time to ensure things go on smoothly at work..


n i totally hate it when my mom complains that why am i always the one being activated for ot.. i just chose to ignore her.. mayb she just dont understand the nature of my job..
but i expected him to be alittle more understanding.. it just turns out disappointing.. i dont like questions like "why is it u again" being thrown at mi.. i think i have really swallowed alot of his things.. his clubbing issues.. his drinking issues.. his money issues.. i just dont wanna kick a big fuss abt all these..
but stil i really cant believe that he didnt plan anything for my bday.. ya.. i know i always said that bday is not a big occasion to mi.. n i know he is really very broke.. but wat i want is just some simple n proper planning.. i dont need expensive dinner or entertainment n i dont mind just staying at home the whole day with him.. in the end.. everything abt tt day was decided by mi.. there wasnt even a small bit slice of cake..
n to think pq, my boss n my colleagues even bothered to get mi.. i know the jeans n jackets are expensive.. i dont want expensive gifts..

its so pitiful to think that i cried myself to slp tt day.. n he doesnt even know abt it.. thanks hur.. really thanks that i wasted my one day of leave to disappoint myself..

mayb i stil cant get over the things he had done.. n i told him directly before that he is just taking things for granted.. in fact, he treats other girls way better than mi.. except mayb he dont lavish expensive gifts on them.. n i stil feels the presence of his ex-gf lingering there.. this is sth that i really hate !!! i hate that he is always being Mr. Nice Guy to her n other girls when he doesnt care abt my feelings at all..

i really cant take it anymore...

Happi bday to myself ! lol...

i had lotsa fun with the union ging gang on sat...
as usual its always lots of fun with them around.. =)
n i got my ck summer from them.. thanks alot ppl.. i love ya all..

nth much to update after tt anyway..
basically.. to be frank.. i felt that i had just wasted my leave today..
needless to say.. i m disappointed..

n i just came to realise about some stuffs.. mayb i am just thinking too much..
but any way i am a year older now.. or i should say i am officially into adult hood.. so just hope my mani years ahead would be smooth sailing.. =)

yeay! i got my adidas jacket!!!

yipeee... hehe... =p

okok shall update more next time lol.. ta!